Wednesday 7 August 2013

Rough Draft ..




New Folder- English Assignment –Document 1- Event that changed my life

Ballet   Dancing was, is and always has been my passion since I was four . Most of the boys aspired to be an engineer, a doctor but I..
I wanted to be a ballet dancer...
We all have that one person who is important to us, someone who’s special and means everything to us no matter how good or bad they are. I had someone like that. Her name was Mia.
They say people often pen down the things they can’t say .I am doing the same
 This story is not about friendship neither is it about love . It’s about the things I dint say or I dint do.
     I knew Mia since I was 3. We grew up together to being really good friends. No one understood me as she did. She was my person. She was a  free spirited person. She always inspired me to do whatever I wanted to and to follow my dream.  She believed in my values and  my dreams. She knew I would grow up to be a ballet dancer and a good ballet dancer.
  It was not any other day.. It was probably the most important day of my life. For the first time I  was performing at the Savoy theatre of London .  A Big   show.  A Big  Day. And Mia’s random visits were ever shocking. But this one was not a random visit instead it was shocking. She came home to tell me that she’s got a severe headache and she won’t be coming for my show. We have a horrible argument. She was trying to tell me how I should understand that she had a terrible headache and I was trying to tell her how I wanted her to come to see me perform. It no more remained an argument it now turned into a big fight which resulted in me slamming the door and me saying something that I‘ve never told her in the fifteen years of our championship.
I gave my performance leaving this matter  aside. It was my first performance in front of such a huge audience I could not let myself down. After the performance was over I went to my mom her eyes was filled with tears, I hugged her , she was silent , she was shivering.  She cried to me saying that Mia had met with a massive accident on her way here and that she was no more. I was numb, I blanked out I wanted to believe all of this was one big joke. Who would have guessed that tears in a mothers eyes after her son’s performance would turn out to be like this.
It’s been a  year to Mia’s death. And never have I  talked about her to anyone neither  my family nor her’s not even our common friends . I am supposed to write an assignment   about one event that changed my life and give in a rough draft to Miss Angela by tomorrow afternoon. This one event took  away my everything and changed my life forever.
They say when a person dies all that the person thinks about  is the last memory they shared with the one’s  they love .  Mia’s last memory with me was ‘I slamming the door on her face’ and me telling  her ‘I hate you’. I have  been living with this guilt and its surely one of the worst feelings ever, knowing that I was giving my best performance and Mia battling with life and death.
Her mom keeps telling me as to how proud she would be or rather was , but what is the point of this. When I couldn’t even keep our  last memory in Mia’s mind a happy one.
Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger when you let down a friend. Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have a little time for regret because we’re looking to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past , and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.
But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did, But for the things we didn’t   do . Things we didn’t say that could’ve save someone that we care about. Especially when we can’t see the darkness headed their way. Like me.


So go ahead and tell a loved one that you love them, Do things that make them happy and make the best of memories.
Because more than life not being so beautiful as it sounds it is, it  kicks you up , beats you and scares you and above all its unpredictable. And you don’t  not know what’s coming next.
One event that changed my life.

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Thursday 1 November 2012

"Best Man" :)


Today’s Post is about someone who is my star, my hero!
I am not going to try and guess what he means to other people or what sort of contribution he’ll be doing to life. All I know is that I gain immeasurably from our relationship in all sorts of circumstances
in the things we do together, like watching a movie or going for a gig , having lunch or just sitting and chatting. I suppose one is affected differently by different people, some annoy and irritate , some stimulating , others again are happy and entertaining.
To me he has a serene quality, a sort of cheerful clam, which could be well exasperating for some but to me it is the most endearing and enjoyable characteristic. He also has one rear quality of a man he is supremely civilized.  Kind and  modest.. He is Ambitious and fun loving and also the typical down to earth types. Although his name means “Impossible to defeat”  he is someone who competes with himself. At times,  he could be really difficult to deal with , he’ll annoy , he’ll irritate but still he is the bestman in my life.
To someone so intelligent.
To someone who I respect the most.
To someone who was my friend till I was 13 and a father lately :P
To My brother Ajinkya !

Tuesday 6 March 2012

Girl's Night Out!




"Dad, I am spending the night at ''So and So's'' place . Her parents are out of town and so we decided to have a girl's pyjama party".
Any Boys ? Like last time ? (Mother Interrupt's)
Din't I clearly mention "GIRLS pyjama party" ????
Ok beta , Go! But take care ..

p.s : Father's could be so much more easier to deal  than mother's !

In the Bedroom ..
"Where are you off too? " ( Annoying Brother)
A Girl's Pyjama party !
"Will he (Boyfriend) be there ? " ( Inquisitive Annoying brother)
No !

On the way to "so and so's " place ..
(Boyfriend) "HEY! where are you? "
On my way to 'so and so's place' , Sleepover party !!
(In his mind) A girl's Sleepover is equivalent to GOSSIP ! How Boring!
(Then replies) Okay Love, Have Fun ! And try texting me !

Before 12 ,
Cooking fast food , junk maggi pasta etc .. or either some pizza dinner !
Keeping your family updated , till they stop pestering you by their calls !
And Ofcourse , texting your Boyfriend , talking over the phone etc..

When almost everyone associated to you is asleep the After 12 fun begins..
AFTER 12 ..
Bottle's of beer or vodka to get tipsy !
Clicking of picture's decent, horrid , mad everything included !
Followed by some crazy dancing Mujra, Pole dance , Lap dance or Belly dance we do it ALL !
A little here and there prank call's to the unknown..Flirty talks are always a part of the conversation..
And we never have our pyjama's on, (shorts and a small cute tshirt, that's it ! ;)
Then we stalk ever possible 'hot' guy   mutal- friends google or on on facebook..
Watch Movies ..play songs on the guitar , shout and scream songs till our lungs burst out..
And then followed by few more crazy stuff which must not be mentioned Or else I'll may just get killed !
But in the end , we go out for a after midnight walk , which is like a cherry on the top  ^_^

I realise that when we girls get together we could be real crazy creature's , and that we certainly can have more fun and can  live without the men in our live's !
But If these night's were forever they'd probably get a wee too boring !
Thankfully we have these such night's once in a while and we seem to have the time of our lives :D



Monday 27 February 2012

Another experience !



Everything was finally over. Formalities , Doctor's fees, Test's , Buying of medicine's and most important Paying of the bill's that had so many unwanted number of zero's beside any random number! I waited for him at the stair's , as he stood beside me he whispered "Everything thing is alright  now, don worry" ! As I walked  down the stair's each step felt so heavy . I knew what happened was wrong . But I had no option . I dint know how to react . Whether to be relaxed or be guilty ! After all, it wasn't easy for me to accept the fact that few hour's back I got my 2 month's baby killed . Gawd , I almost felt a murder'er !
While I sat in the car, what kept me thinking was Where did we go wrong ?!?!
Was it the 'unprotected sex' ? Was the "extra" passion we had for each other on that particular day ? Was it getting slightly drunk on my 24year old boyfriend's farm house party that landed us having sex ? Or is this why elder's say Pre-Marital sex = NO!
Thinking about all this right now seem's pointless to me. But I've realised one thing , that life changes so fast . And with every change you have something new to see and experience. You get the good with the bad !
You have no choice either live with it, or make an effort to change it !
Well as in my case, The most beautiful feeling in the world that gave me pleasure today gives me a lot guilt !
Regarding the Abortion procedure's  and paying of the bill's I don't know whether I should feel happy or sad that I had a well-off , supportive boyfriend who took care of almost EVERYTHING!
I then looked at him, he sat beside me and looked disturbed , guilty and sad ! I also saw that he was worried for me ! After a second or so our eyes met . I moved closer to him and said 'I am okay, now! '
He looked down and said 'I know you aren't ' !
I had nothing to say , I wanted to hug him and cry out loud , but I feared that my tears would rather make him feel more guilty and sad ! So I just moved away from him , I really dint have energy to console or convince him !
(pulling me towards him) He said " Don't sit far . I am feeling very low , I want you now ! Close to me " !
I the rested my head on his shoulder .
(kissing me on my forehead) He said 'I Love You. ' !
To which I replied ' I Love you too' !

So here is the a much stronger  me wondering as to what more challenge's and experiences  Life has got in store for me !




p.s : Purely fiction . I had randomly written this ! And a friend of mine wanted me to post this !
p.p.s : Hope you like it !


Friday 2 December 2011

Because I miss him !


Being in Love is always so very beautiful . Only draw back is when you have unsuccessful love stories !
Especially the one where you were in love and you dint make it possible together  till the end !
Earlier while writing this post a friend of mine asked me not to post it ! Billion dollar reason's don't ask !
But now I am posting it not only for the one who I presently miss the most but to all the other's who are in love so that they could value that every moment with their loved one's :)

Missing those eenie - meenie things with that someone seems to be even more hard and miserable so I decided to pen them down, and feel rather a little better !


I miss seeing my Cellphone's Inbox filled with his text's message's!

I miss being called by all those  silly-cute nick names !

I miss my finger's getting interlocked with his while we shared long walks together!

I miss his eye's talking to mine!

I miss the rickshaw rides that took us to one destination to another , But what I miss the most is the travel !

I miss looking forward to the 18th day of every month !

I miss the excitement I used to have while checking my phone to see whether I had an call backs even after I was kissed 'Good Night' through the phone !

I miss the smiles/ giggles in between the random   lip-locks we shared  !

And..

I miss keeping my head on his shoulder's and holding his tshirt/shirt  tightly with my finger's !

Well, I do miss a lot more things , But on the whole I miss us !

p.s : Posting this one with a lot of hesitation . Din't feel like cross checking  it ! Hope you enjoy it !

Thursday 10 November 2011

Familia..!


Firstly,
Familia (In Spanish, just because it sounded cute ) = Family ( In English :P )
Dictionary defines  “Family” as a group consisting of parents and their children..
My definition is a wee bit longer..:P
In a Family , You’ll have ,
* A father who’ll wake up twenty times at night to make sure your “okay” while your ill..
* A mother whose lap would probably be the most secure place to cry or sleep..
* A brother whose “lame” jokes were enough to make you laugh and keep the liveliness alive..
* A sister whose “bear hugs” and “kisses” in public will make feel slightly embarrassed..
* A grandfather who’ll start every sentence of his to you by saying “IN MY DAYS \ IN OUR TIMES “
*  Your “Nani ma ke – Nauske’s “ ( home -made remedies ) given to you     first before any antibiotic while you ill..
* A dad who’ll be termed as your “ATM” ( All time money)
* An annoying brother who’ll disapprove of or make fun of your boyfriend..

* A sister who’ll be possessive and pamper you till you  get married or even after that!
* A mother who’ll run after you to take your lunch box \ tiffen box when you in school , college or even while   your working !
* You’ll have parents who’ll be your “Sensor boards” when its regarding your size of your clothes , the way you dress or grow your hair and of course your “LANGUAGE” at home..
* And the if shit happens or you’ve done wrong you’ve done something wrong then you’ll have your dadi
save you from all the shouting’s, scolding’s and beatings and if your lucky then your parents are scolded back !
* While your having fun at a late night party and you suddenly realize that you’ve crossed you deadline time,  your cell will have
Dad: 3 missed calls
Brother: 7 missed calls
Sister : 18 missed calls
Mom: 21 missed calls
Followed by a few text’s saying “COME HOME RIGHT AWAY!!” , “Dad is pissed at you , where are you ? “ , Come home fast, you’re screwed” , “Where are you beta ? I am worried! “
Well…
These are  our families 
Were father’s are the most unexpressive!
Mother’s are inquistive friends!
Sister’s are possesive!
And..
Brother’s are overly protective!

Saturday 29 October 2011

Little things you do for me..


Lately, there has been only this one particular person who has literally had the patience to be supportive , put the ‘broken me’  back and has calmed me down at the most miserable times ..

This post is for all the little things you have done that has mattered..

* By sending the ‘Big hug’ ({}) emoticon whenever I needed them..

*for hearing the unsaid..

*for making me feel maverick whenever I had lost  all hopes on myself..

*for asking me to remove my blue tic-tac just to tell me that my hair looked better when it was left open..:)

*for being there when I’ve wanted to talk to someone about life, love and being..

*for being stupidly confused and shy whenever I’ve found you stare at me..

*for making me feel lucky that I have one chivalour’s man in my life..

*for all the flirty talks and those blushes..

And most importantly for being MY strength…



   
p.s : I lourvve yew ({})..