Because I miss him !

Being in Love is always so very beautiful . Only draw back is when you have unsuccessful love stories !
Especially the one where you were in love and you dint make it possible together  till the end !
Earlier while writing this post a friend of mine asked me not to post it ! Billion dollar reason's don't ask !
But now I am posting it not only for the one who I presently miss the most but to all the other's who are in love so that they could value that every moment with their loved one's :)

Missing those eenie - meenie things with that someone seems to be even more hard and miserable so I decided to pen them down, and feel rather a little better !


I miss seeing my Cellphone's Inbox filled with his text's message's!

I miss being called by all those  silly-cute nick names !

I miss my finger's getting interlocked with his while we shared long walks together!

I miss his eye's talking to mine!

I miss the rickshaw rides that took us to one destination to another , But what I miss the most is the travel !

I miss looking forward to the 18th day of every month !

I miss the excitement I used to have while checking my phone to see whether I had an call backs even after I was kissed 'Good Night' through the phone !

I miss the smiles/ giggles in between the random   lip-locks we shared  !

And..

I miss keeping my head on his shoulder's and holding his tshirt/shirt  tightly with my finger's !

Well, I do miss a lot more things , But on the whole I miss us !

p.s : Posting this one with a lot of hesitation . Din't feel like cross checking  it ! Hope you enjoy it !

Familia..!

Firstly,
Familia (In Spanish, just because it sounded cute ) = Family ( In English :P )
Dictionary defines  “Family” as a group consisting of parents and their children..
My definition is a wee bit longer..:P
In a Family , You’ll have ,
* A father who’ll wake up twenty times at night to make sure your “okay” while your ill..
* A mother whose lap would probably be the most secure place to cry or sleep..
* A brother whose “lame” jokes were enough to make you laugh and keep the liveliness alive..
* A sister whose “bear hugs” and “kisses” in public will make feel slightly embarrassed..
* A grandfather who’ll start every sentence of his to you by saying “IN MY DAYS \ IN OUR TIMES “
*  Your “Nani ma ke – Nauske’s “ ( home -made remedies ) given to you     first before any antibiotic while you ill..
* A dad who’ll be termed as your “ATM” ( All time money)
* An annoying brother who’ll disapprove of or make fun of your boyfriend..

* A sister who’ll be possessive and pamper you till you  get married or even after that!
* A mother who’ll run after you to take your lunch box \ tiffen box when you in school , college or even while   your working !
* You’ll have parents who’ll be your “Sensor boards” when its regarding your size of your clothes , the way you dress or grow your hair and of course your “LANGUAGE” at home..
* And the if shit happens or you’ve done wrong you’ve done something wrong then you’ll have your dadi
save you from all the shouting’s, scolding’s and beatings and if your lucky then your parents are scolded back !

* While your having fun at a late night party and you suddenly realize that you’ve crossed you deadline time,  your cell will have

Dad: 3 missed calls

Brother: 7 missed calls

Sister : 18 missed calls

Mom: 21 missed calls

Followed by a few text’s saying “COME HOME RIGHT AWAY!!” , “Dad is pissed at you , where are you ? “ , Come home fast, you’re screwed” , “Where are you beta ? I am worried! “

Well…
These are  our families 
Were father’s are the most unexpressive!
Mother’s are inquistive friends!
Sister’s are possesive!
And..
Brother’s are overly protective!

Little things you do for me..

Lately, there has been only this one particular person who has literally had the patience to be supportive , put the ‘broken me’  back and has calmed me down at the most miserable times ..

This post is for all the little things you have done that has mattered..

* By sending the ‘Big hug’ ({}) emoticon whenever I needed them..

*for hearing the unsaid..

*for making me feel maverick whenever I had lost  all hopes on myself..

*for asking me to remove my blue tic-tac just to tell me that my hair looked better when it was left open..:)

*for being there when I’ve wanted to talk to someone about life, love and being..

*for being stupidly confused and shy whenever I’ve found you stare at me..

*for making me feel lucky that I have one chivalour’s man in my life..

*for all the flirty talks and those blushes..

And most importantly for being MY strength…



    p.s : I lourvve yew ({})..
                                                                                                                                                                             
                           

Happyness ...:) :D

From the past two months...
I have learn't that happiness is one such thing which you must not depend on anyone else..
So...I make myself happy in any small way I can..It feels good..:)

Yesterday,
A person very close to me..edited a picture of mine..
I thought it was a very sweet gesture
Knowing how less patient that person is..the very attempt to sit and edict my picture for 3 long hour's..
Made me very happy ...
And after A long time I found myself feel special..!

Eeee...I am in "happyness"..!!!!!

Dear editor,
You rock..! Thank you so much :)

The edited picture..
 P.S:The caption is so very mee...:P :)

It's Magical...!!!

Today morning I was sitting in my room sipping a cup of coffee and simultaneously cleaning my bag..
While I was doing so,I felt myself remove an envelope ..!

What could be this envelope..??? I started to think.!
Trying to recollect
My mind says " Oh freak! Did you forget to give the most amusing card you picked for dad on Father's day..? "
My heart replies " No..No..!!  The card is given ! This envelope had a paper in it..It's a letter..:)
The Love Letter..!!!!

This love letter had all my sincere and pure feelings..for the one I love !
Two minutes later My mind to me to Last year's December..
I received the most special Love Letter...
It was not very long not the Goody goody , lovey dovey types!!!
It was funny and so very authentic..! 
Wat keep's it special is the innocence..and words just from the heart ..:)

Love Letter's convey the mysterious and the unexpected !
There is some magic..which excites you and makes you happy !
It has the power to evoke emotion's days and months after it was written.!

No one can resist receiving a Love Letter...I cant!!!
You tend to  flip out the seat in amazement.!!
You remove the letter out of the envelope so gently and you open each and every fold of the paper with so much curiosity filled within you..!

And Of-course !!!! The Blush on your face remains throughout and even afterward..(L.O.L I'm Blushing !!! )



The one's writing just pour out the feeling from their heart and pen them down..!
You need not "Fadu" or extraordinary language or draw hearts all over or make it pinky pink to make it look all beautiful.!
Sincere feelings that's all you need!

Love Letter's bring "happyness "..
I am glad..I was and I still am a part of this beautiful experience..
Trust me ! It's Magical..! ;)

Soo..Keep Loving..! Keep Writing !!! *Cheer's *

 

The Silly me..!

Yesterday my mum was watching me dance salsa on a shakira's "hips don't lie" :P
And she told me "Krishnaa there have been many things that have changed in you  but when you were a baby  your  passion and love for dance remains the same..and grows.." :)

Well..after this my mind forced me to think about my days while I was a child ..!

When I was small ( well although people think I still am :P ) . I had a world of my own..where I used to believe certain things which always weren't ethical but I wish some were according to my imagination or believes.!

* For me Shah Rukh khan and Maduri were the BEST MARRIED couple..!

*There is ONE BIG HOLE in earth where spaceships would go to space and enter earth back..!

*Every cat was called "TOM" , every rat "JERRY" and all dogs were named "TOMMY"..!!

* "Let it be " from Beatles and Bryan Adams "Summer's of '69" were the ONLY ENGLISH SONGS! And they were the Best..!

* When a girl and boy KISS the very next day they get a Baby..!

* Pillow's were ONLY  meant for hugging..!

* Actor's knew most of the "baap" steps and had "amazing" voices..hence which make them the BEST DANCER'S and BEST SINGER'S..!!!

* Clouds were the only one's who cried the LOUDEST and LONGEST..!!!

Well..All these thoughts made me "The silly me "..!!!
But childhood days were the best days of my life.!

p.s : The weather its freakishly awesomely romantic!!! .. Although the rain gets at me at times..!!
      Nevertheless, its a season for love..so..keep loving..! :)

Mother's :)

Today’s article is for someone who does not like the idea of blogging!
Nevertheless , I give that person one reason to like blogging!! “



She Loves me…She care’s for me..She shout’s at me..She supports me !!!
A lady who can multitask, from teaching me, to feeding me! From the Bold to the Beautiful!!!
A person who’s guiding me unconditionally from the past seventeen year’s of my life!
Someone who know’s me better than I know myself! I don’t tell but deep down my heart I know she is only my strength…!!! And I really mean it…

I have always told people around if you learn to deal with her…you can fight any battle , reason: not because she’s strict , she’s smart! And yeah, The sensible one!

To worrying about my health , medicines , education , clothes, thought’s , in short EVERYTHING!
She has never been my friend , But… she has always guided me and believed me in every step I take!
I like it that way… !


She is someone who I would never want to loose in any way…
She mean’s the world to me …..
She is hatke ;)
She is rocking ;)
She is my Mother….:)

My mother.....:)

So..Well…As today’s mother’s day…
“Happy Mother’s Day”..to all the mother’s who are special to their children …in there own ways!

Dear Ma,
Happy Mother’s day! I have made you card ( Its not from Archies “thandha ghe “..! :P )
I know today morning you were expecting me to wish you when Ajinkya called but..I had this article On you! For you!
Take care!
I am very proud to be your daughter!
Congo…now your Dr. Lata Shenava ( Completion of your Phd makes me proud )
Thanks for being there…
Love you…
Muahhh….:*

When nothing makes sense........

Haven't been blogging from sometime....*Apologies*
Just the horrible phase I'm going through! *cries*
Learning it the hard way...

I  don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain..

 Whatever,  It sucks to be alone, even when there are people all around you..!!!!




Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again.  So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.  I wanna go back to when Santa did exist.  When your daddy an brother  were  the only boys you ever kissed.  When Disney World was the best place to be.  When the only movies you could see were rated G.  When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...and your friends were the same.  And every time you were sad or you had a bad day.  You could just run to mum and it would all be okay.  I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter.  When everyone always lives happily ever after.




There are times, That I just feel so lost!

Thankfully work keep's me occupied !
But at the end....

You find your family member's annoying and irritating!

A cell-phone you never want to look at!
The social network site which never seemed boring as it feel's now!

The hatred and unnecessary fight's with the one's who care and love you..!!
Getting close to the one's you  once upon a time  tagged as "enemies or good for nothing creatures"..!!

I have forgotten to smile and be happy!
Now, I am in search of my "happywala" days!
And I hope they come soon!
While I am living through this so very bad and sad phase....
I have realized that BOOKS and MUSIC  are my only companion's..!!!!


So as of now..Chetan Bhagat , Sidney Sheldon's and Mill's  and Boon's are the most interesting and passionate stuff I am reading ( Typical Teenager) !!!

And ,

Well Music...its "AWESUMNESS"..!!!!!
My playlist is long...very lonnnng....

Nevertheless... Brayan Adam's , Ronan Keating , The Beatles, The Eagles  and Bob Marley!!!!!!!

The happyness and calmness I get from music I dont think anyone or anybody could ever do that to me..!!

I Love you...

My life..and my blog would be incomplete if I wouldn't mention this man who completes me.....
His eyes were to die for...He is " Oh! my god hot.."...!!!!!
Simply charming, makes me life amazing!!!!

April 4th 1979 was the birth date of the love  of my life..he's my man..!! ;)

Ricky Pointing and Brett Lee were two such Aussie's who were always a part of my so very long crush list~..
But oh! boy , this particular Aussie took my heart and soul....away..!!!

27th July 2007 was the first time I saw "10 Things I hate about you.. "
 The film..still even today remain's my favourite..
That night I dream't of being Julia Stiles...And I so wish it was true but Damn..I wasn't..!!!!

Earlier I thought I was infacuated...but no! I was so very wrong!
Another handsome in my crush list!

Started watching his film's...
I was completely moved by his performances in The Patriot , Monster's Ball and  Brokeback Mountain..

So he was an actor..a amazing one!

Now, it was A Lot Like Love..
Thanks to Cupid..!! I was deeply and madly in love with this actor.!!!


And then came 22nd January 2008, one of the most shattering days of m life!!!!
I so wish this day never existed....
The news told me he was no more!!!
I cried...:'(
Thought's within me..." He left me???? "
"Din't he know how much I Loved him??? "
I was BROKEN!!!!!!
No I din't want a sad ending...I had dream's of living together, Babies...and a lot more !
People thought I was silly...especially my friends...

Then came the movie Dark Night...I was totally in love with the joker!!!!!
People thought my love was a joke..it wasn't!!! :(

Mum saw the unhappy me..
According to her falling for a drug addict was madness !!!
But....When love is not madness its not love..I said...!

It was clear...
I LOVE HIM.....!!!!

I remember playing spin the bottle with my friends at a party..
I was asked "Ïf You and He were together on an island....all alone..
and he would asked you, when do u wanna do it..wat would you say? "
I said "I would tell him LETS DO IT NOW...without the c***** !!!!!

Okay..people may think I am silly mad foolish..etc etc etc...
I don't care...actually I do!
But...
I want the entire world ti know if there was ever love it was mine for him!!!!!
Well...there is lot more...I wish he was there! I miss him...A LOT..actually...
My dreams remain dreams only..:(

But a quote from the Alchemist says "And when you want something ; all the urniverse conspires in helping you to achieve it!!! "
So, I hope to get him someday and fullfill all my dreams with him!

To Health Ledger If ur listening,
For each day I love you more Today than yesterday and less than tomorrow....!!!
p.s  : I miss you...

Love matter's..!!!

  

I was in college...and whenever I am in college, I have to make a visit to the washroom.

I don't consider myself among one of those pretty dolls, but my brother says I have transformed into this typical "teenage" girl...And I think bothering about my looks is okay...!! Its normal i guess..!!


Yea..so once I entered the washroom and I found these so very nice looking sensible girls.. writing something on the wall which got me taken a back.
They wrote

" VIRGINITY IS NOT A LOSS OF DIGNITY..BUT IT'S A LOSS OF OPPORTUNITY.." ..!!!!!!

They looked at it wickedly, proudly giggled and went away..!!! I was shocked..!!!


On my way back home, I get a call from my friend who sounded very depressed..!!!

My friends often have this tendency to discuss all their issues with me.. That's merely all the sad stuff that happen to their life...!!

I wonder why don't they tell me all the talk's which excite them and bring happiness..?!! Anyway...!!

She told me that she had a breakup with her boyfriend..her family was in financial crises..her elder brother although being 26 still doesn't earn.. and she went on and on.

All she was exited about was that she would be meeting a very close friend.. They had planned to meet at his residence.

I was glad that she was meeting her friends and trying to be happy until she told me that they planed to get physical..
May be he lusted for her, and she thought getting physical would rather leave her with pleasure and take her depression away..!!!
I wasn't all that happy.. I was a little skeptical of her decision..!!!


I am 17... And I know exactly how a 17 year old mind works.

According to me "Love" is the most beautiful emotion.. love is inexplicable yet it could be expressed in various ways..

emotionally.. verbally.. silently.. and even through physicality..

And its depressing when "Love" no more remains what it is meant to be..!!

When you are in a relationship.. there are various emotions that attach you to the person you love.. trust, care , affection, possessiveness , jealousy, a lot of emotions..

Being physical in a relationship with the person you love enhances the relationship and blooms the sense of oneness and togetherness! Rather the bond between them becomes strong..and it remains pure and serene!!!

But this thought is lost in the modernized human mind.

Now days, I see that "Love" is gradually losing itself under the cover of "Lust"...!!! It is more about making use of each other's bodies without any feelings, any emotions attached. In simple words, without any strings attached.

I don't know if just lusting for a person is right or wrong...

But it is not acceptable to me when lust is flourished in the name of love!!!!

If you choose to be physical with the person without any emotions attached, if you are comfortable doing so and if you think you are ready for the same, then go for it.
But a thing to be kept in mind is that, lusting for a person and claiming it to be love, is not the best thing to do. 

HE IS SOMEONE......

He is someone whom I have been close to from the past few months of my life....

He is someone who means the world to me...

Our world....

He is someone who I care dearly....

He is someone who makes me feel safe....very safe in those broad shoulder's of his...

Safetyness in those shoulder's..!!!

He is someone who can make me happy by doing the most nonsensical things on earth...

He is someone who reminds me that although he is two year's younger to me..he's the older one..

He is someone who I am most comfortable with...

He is someone who takes me to a world where only "US" exist....

That's "US"...!!!

He is someone who understand's me the best....

He is someone who may not be there when I need him the most..but he is also that someone..who supports me and convince's by increasing  my confiedence to fight the battles of life on my own..He makes me feel strong..!!!

His dialouge: "You've gotta be strong Krishu"..!!

 All I wanna say is u wre my strenght..!!

He is someone who is perfectly unromantic..but tries hard to fill romance in my life..I guess for me his efforts
to bring in romance was convincing!!! 

Oh freak! walking almost for 20 mis..to just give a rose..!!Crazy you..!!!

He is someone who may not complient me for my looks and attire..but he is one the typically  guy who gets jealous..very jealous...if any other guy prasies me...

He is someone who doesn't like possesiveness but..he is someone who has that cute anger on his face if his attention is passed to any other person....

He is someone who loves to be tamed loved and cared...."Baby bum" is what I  call him....!!!!!

"Mumma's boy......."!!!!!

He is someone who loves his" Dady dear"...who is the complete "Mumma's boy"..and his "Didi's ladla"..

He is someone who at times becomes my bestfriend..my father..my mother..a brother a sister..or even my enemy..!!

He is someone who I cant share..

I better leave this unmaed...!!! But all memories are treasured in my heart....!!!

He is someone who is mine...

He is someone who I don't wanna loose... ~~~

p.s: For my someone....
      I love you....*kissi's*...*hugs*..take lots of care!!!!  :* <3 :)

The phone call... :)

Its ....A.M.A.Z.I.N.G...!!!!  

“The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had"..!!

How you remember my hand writing?

How you remember I had that "Mumbai' attitude ?

How you remember our fight after the Hindi period...! Although it was silly...:P

How you remember that I loved to dance.!!!

How you remember How much i missed My family..Mumbai..and of course vada pav..!

How you remember I wanted to cry..when I wanted Diwali vacation's..and i couldn't go home (Mumbai)..?! 

"A true friend is someone who knows there's something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face."
You knew it that day to.!    

  

How you remember I never wanted to sit beside that one guy in class..who i disliked!!!!

How you remember What I wore on Children's day...?! Thanks for appreciating  and insulting me on that  day..!!

How you  remember that I was the only one who knew your crush..!! Teacher?!! give me the breaks...!!

How you remember where I cried after having the fight with my moti...!! I felt bad only U knew it..!!!!

And Lastly, You still remember How much we hated each other..But still we needed each other..!!! 

Guys....
This is one friend of mine who I hate the most...

he he..The both of us still couldn't figure out Why we hate each other so much ?!
Anyways Lets keep wondering..!!! 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I hate him...
Because he said he will keep in touch...!!!!
Because he said he will be in a serious relationship...!!!!
Because he said he will improve his handwriting...!!!!
Because he said he will promise to be my friend If not a best friend..but be a friend forever..!!!
And......
I hate him even more..for proving me wrong...!!!

You know why..

Because he did connect me...2day after four long years...!!!
Because he is in a serious relationship...proudly completing 2 years and 7 months...!!!
Because he worked on his handwriting...and ya! people can read his writing...!!!
Because he kept his promise of being my friend forever..my best friend!!! 

To him...
Dude..You took me four years back...to my happy days..!! :)
You have surprised me by calling me 2day..!!
I am glad that your happy being 11 thousand kilometers far  from me ...and even more glad that your having fun..and finally enjoying life..!!
Thank you for hating me so much..coz if u dint I would have never known how much you valued me..!!!!
I like the new and changed YOU...!!!!
I am glad I made a difference in your life..!!! I love you..!!!
All i wanna say is I miss u and all the days we shared as "hater's"..!!!!

                                                                      Take care...
                                                                        'Me' : The girl who hated and needed u..! :)  :*

Lastly...
I feel happy..today! It was a much needed surprise..!!!! I somewhere needed it..and he was der..! :)
He never loved me nor did I...!!
We were so used to hating each other so much...that we couldn't think of a third person to hate! 
We are friends..!! :D
And...
'He' just is playing his role of being my friend..And so am 'I'...!! :)  :* 

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."
We are friends forever..!!