Wednesday 23 March 2011

Love matter's..!!!


  


I was in college...and whenever I am in college, I have to make a visit to the washroom.

I don't consider myself among one of those pretty dolls, but my brother says I have transformed into this typical "teenage" girl...And I think bothering about my looks is okay...!! Its normal i guess..!!


Yea..so once I entered the washroom and I found these so very nice looking sensible girls.. writing something on the wall which got me taken a back.
They wrote

" VIRGINITY IS NOT A LOSS OF DIGNITY..BUT IT'S A LOSS OF OPPORTUNITY.." ..!!!!!!

They looked at it wickedly, proudly giggled and went away..!!! I was shocked..!!!


On my way back home, I get a call from my friend who sounded very depressed..!!!

My friends often have this tendency to discuss all their issues with me.. That's merely all the sad stuff that happen to their life...!!

I wonder why don't they tell me all the talk's which excite them and bring happiness..?!! Anyway...!!

She told me that she had a breakup with her boyfriend..her family was in financial crises..her elder brother although being 26 still doesn't earn.. and she went on and on.

All she was exited about was that she would be meeting a very close friend.. They had planned to meet at his residence.

I was glad that she was meeting her friends and trying to be happy until she told me that they planed to get physical..
May be he lusted for her, and she thought getting physical would rather leave her with pleasure and take her depression away..!!!
I wasn't all that happy.. I was a little skeptical of her decision..!!!


I am 17... And I know exactly how a 17 year old mind works.

According to me "Love" is the most beautiful emotion.. love is inexplicable yet it could be expressed in various ways..

emotionally.. verbally.. silently.. and even through physicality..

And its depressing when "Love" no more remains what it is meant to be..!!

When you are in a relationship.. there are various emotions that attach you to the person you love.. trust, care , affection, possessiveness , jealousy, a lot of emotions..

Being physical in a relationship with the person you love enhances the relationship and blooms the sense of oneness and togetherness! Rather the bond between them becomes strong..and it remains pure and serene!!!

But this thought is lost in the modernized human mind.

Now days, I see that "Love" is gradually losing itself under the cover of "Lust"...!!! It is more about making use of each other's bodies without any feelings, any emotions attached. In simple words, without any strings attached.

I don't know if just lusting for a person is right or wrong...

But it is not acceptable to me when lust is flourished in the name of love!!!!

If you choose to be physical with the person without any emotions attached, if you are comfortable doing so and if you think you are ready for the same, then go for it.
But a thing to be kept in mind is that, lusting for a person and claiming it to be love, is not the best thing to do. 




Monday 21 March 2011

HE IS SOMEONE......

He is someone whom I have been close to from the past few months of my life....

He is someone who means the world to me...

Our world....

He is someone who I care dearly....

He is someone who makes me feel safe....very safe in those broad shoulder's of his...


Safetyness in those shoulder's..!!!


He is someone who can make me happy by doing the most nonsensical things on earth...

He is someone who reminds me that although he is two year's younger to me..he's the older one..

He is someone who I am most comfortable with...

He is someone who takes me to a world where only "US" exist....
That's "US"...!!!


He is someone who understand's me the best....

He is someone who may not be there when I need him the most..but he is also that someone..who supports me and convince's by increasing  my confiedence to fight the battles of life on my own..He makes me feel strong..!!!
His dialouge: "You've gotta be strong Krishu"..!! All I wanna say is u wre my strenght..!!


He is someone who is perfectly unromantic..but tries hard to fill romance in my life..I guess for me his efforts
to bring in romance was convincing!!! 

Oh freak! walking almost for 20 mis..to just give a rose..!!Crazy you..!!!

He is someone who may not complient me for my looks and attire..but he is one the typically  guy who gets jealous..very jealous...if any other guy prasies me...

He is someone who doesn't like possesiveness but..he is someone who has that cute anger on his face if his attention is passed to any other person....

He is someone who loves to be tamed loved and cared...."Baby bum" is what I  call him....!!!!!

"Mumma's boy......."!!!!!


He is someone who loves his" Dady dear"...who is the complete "Mumma's boy"..and his "Didi's ladla"..


He is someone who at times becomes my bestfriend..my father..my mother..a brother a sister..or even my enemy..!!

He is someone who I cant share..

I better leave this unmaed...!!! But all memories are treasured in my heart....!!!

He is someone who is mine...

He is someone who I don't wanna loose... ~~~

p.s: For my someone....
      I love you....*kissi's*...*hugs*..take lots of care!!!!  :* <3 :)












The phone call... :)

Its ....A.M.A.Z.I.N.G...!!!!  


“The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had"..!!



How you remember my hand writing?

How you remember I had that "Mumbai' attitude ?

How you remember our fight after the Hindi period...! Although it was silly...:P

How you remember that I loved to dance.!!!

How you remember How much i missed My family..Mumbai..and of course vada pav..!

How you remember I wanted to cry..when I wanted Diwali vacation's..and i couldn't go home (Mumbai)..?! 




"A true friend is someone who knows there's something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face."
You knew it that day to.!    











  

How you remember I never wanted to sit beside that one guy in class..who i disliked!!!!

How you remember What I wore on Children's day...?! Thanks for appreciating  and insulting me on that  day..!!

How you  remember that I was the only one who knew your crush..!! Teacher?!! give me the breaks...!!

How you remember where I cried after having the fight with my moti...!! I felt bad only U knew it..!!!!

And Lastly, You still remember How much we hated each other..But still we needed each other..!!! 

Guys....
This is one friend of mine who I hate the most...

he he..The both of us still couldn't figure out Why we hate each other so much ?!
Anyways Lets keep wondering..!!! 
     
  
I hate him...
Because he said he will keep in touch...!!!!
Because he said he will be in a serious relationship...!!!!
Because he said he will improve his handwriting...!!!!
Because he said he will promise to be my friend If not a best friend..but be a friend forever..!!!
And......
I hate him even more..for proving me wrong...!!!

You know why..

Because he did connect me...2day after four long years...!!!
Because he is in a serious relationship...proudly completing 2 years and 7 months...!!!
Because he worked on his handwriting...and ya! people can read his writing...!!!
Because he kept his promise of being my friend forever..my best friend!!! 

To him...
Dude..You took me four years back...to my happy days..!! :)
You have surprised me by calling me 2day..!!
I am glad that your happy being 11 thousand kilometers far  from me ...and even more glad that your having fun..and finally enjoying life..!!
Thank you for hating me so much..coz if u dint I would have never known how much you valued me..!!!!
I like the new and changed YOU...!!!!
I am glad I made a difference in your life..!!! I love you..!!!
All i wanna say is I miss u and all the days we shared as "hater's"..!!!!

                                                                      Take care...
                                                                        'Me' : The girl who hated and needed u..! :)  :*

Lastly...
I feel happy..today! It was a much needed surprise..!!!! I somewhere needed it..and he was der..! :)
He never loved me nor did I...!!
We were so used to hating each other so much...that we couldn't think of a third person to hate! 
We are friends..!! :D
And...
'He' just is playing his role of being my friend..And so am 'I'...!! :)  :* 

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."
We are friends forever..!!