Another experience !

Everything was finally over. Formalities , Doctor's fees, Test's , Buying of medicine's and most important Paying of the bill's that had so many unwanted number of zero's beside any random number! I waited for him at the stair's , as he stood beside me he whispered "Everything thing is alright  now, don worry" ! As I walked  down the stair's each step felt so heavy . I knew what happened was wrong . But I had no option . I dint know how to react . Whether to be relaxed or be guilty ! After all, it wasn't easy for me to accept the fact that few hour's back I got my 2 month's baby killed . Gawd , I almost felt a murder'er !
While I sat in the car, what kept me thinking was Where did we go wrong ?!?!
Was it the 'unprotected sex' ? Was the "extra" passion we had for each other on that particular day ? Was it getting slightly drunk on my 24year old boyfriend's farm house party that landed us having sex ? Or is this why elder's say Pre-Marital sex = NO!
Thinking about all this right now seem's pointless to me. But I've realised one thing , that life changes so fast . And with every change you have something new to see and experience. You get the good with the bad !
You have no choice either live with it, or make an effort to change it !
Well as in my case, The most beautiful feeling in the world that gave me pleasure today gives me a lot guilt !
Regarding the Abortion procedure's  and paying of the bill's I don't know whether I should feel happy or sad that I had a well-off , supportive boyfriend who took care of almost EVERYTHING!
I then looked at him, he sat beside me and looked disturbed , guilty and sad ! I also saw that he was worried for me ! After a second or so our eyes met . I moved closer to him and said 'I am okay, now! '
He looked down and said 'I know you aren't ' !
I had nothing to say , I wanted to hug him and cry out loud , but I feared that my tears would rather make him feel more guilty and sad ! So I just moved away from him , I really dint have energy to console or convince him !
(pulling me towards him) He said " Don't sit far . I am feeling very low , I want you now ! Close to me " !
I the rested my head on his shoulder .
(kissing me on my forehead) He said 'I Love You. ' !
To which I replied ' I Love you too' !

So here is the a much stronger  me wondering as to what more challenge's and experiences  Life has got in store for me !




p.s : Purely fiction . I had randomly written this ! And a friend of mine wanted me to post this !
p.p.s : Hope you like it !

Because I miss him !

Being in Love is always so very beautiful . Only draw back is when you have unsuccessful love stories !
Especially the one where you were in love and you dint make it possible together  till the end !
Earlier while writing this post a friend of mine asked me not to post it ! Billion dollar reason's don't ask !
But now I am posting it not only for the one who I presently miss the most but to all the other's who are in love so that they could value that every moment with their loved one's :)

Missing those eenie - meenie things with that someone seems to be even more hard and miserable so I decided to pen them down, and feel rather a little better !


I miss seeing my Cellphone's Inbox filled with his text's message's!

I miss being called by all those  silly-cute nick names !

I miss my finger's getting interlocked with his while we shared long walks together!

I miss his eye's talking to mine!

I miss the rickshaw rides that took us to one destination to another , But what I miss the most is the travel !

I miss looking forward to the 18th day of every month !

I miss the excitement I used to have while checking my phone to see whether I had an call backs even after I was kissed 'Good Night' through the phone !

I miss the smiles/ giggles in between the random   lip-locks we shared  !

And..

I miss keeping my head on his shoulder's and holding his tshirt/shirt  tightly with my finger's !

Well, I do miss a lot more things , But on the whole I miss us !

p.s : Posting this one with a lot of hesitation . Din't feel like cross checking  it ! Hope you enjoy it !

Familia..!

Firstly,
Familia (In Spanish, just because it sounded cute ) = Family ( In English :P )
Dictionary defines  “Family” as a group consisting of parents and their children..
My definition is a wee bit longer..:P
In a Family , You’ll have ,
* A father who’ll wake up twenty times at night to make sure your “okay” while your ill..
* A mother whose lap would probably be the most secure place to cry or sleep..
* A brother whose “lame” jokes were enough to make you laugh and keep the liveliness alive..
* A sister whose “bear hugs” and “kisses” in public will make feel slightly embarrassed..
* A grandfather who’ll start every sentence of his to you by saying “IN MY DAYS \ IN OUR TIMES “
*  Your “Nani ma ke – Nauske’s “ ( home -made remedies ) given to you     first before any antibiotic while you ill..
* A dad who’ll be termed as your “ATM” ( All time money)
* An annoying brother who’ll disapprove of or make fun of your boyfriend..

* A sister who’ll be possessive and pamper you till you  get married or even after that!
* A mother who’ll run after you to take your lunch box \ tiffen box when you in school , college or even while   your working !
* You’ll have parents who’ll be your “Sensor boards” when its regarding your size of your clothes , the way you dress or grow your hair and of course your “LANGUAGE” at home..
* And the if shit happens or you’ve done wrong you’ve done something wrong then you’ll have your dadi
save you from all the shouting’s, scolding’s and beatings and if your lucky then your parents are scolded back !

* While your having fun at a late night party and you suddenly realize that you’ve crossed you deadline time,  your cell will have

Dad: 3 missed calls

Brother: 7 missed calls

Sister : 18 missed calls

Mom: 21 missed calls

Followed by a few text’s saying “COME HOME RIGHT AWAY!!” , “Dad is pissed at you , where are you ? “ , Come home fast, you’re screwed” , “Where are you beta ? I am worried! “

Well…
These are  our families 
Were father’s are the most unexpressive!
Mother’s are inquistive friends!
Sister’s are possesive!
And..
Brother’s are overly protective!

Little things you do for me..

Lately, there has been only this one particular person who has literally had the patience to be supportive , put the ‘broken me’  back and has calmed me down at the most miserable times ..

This post is for all the little things you have done that has mattered..

* By sending the ‘Big hug’ ({}) emoticon whenever I needed them..

*for hearing the unsaid..

*for making me feel maverick whenever I had lost  all hopes on myself..

*for asking me to remove my blue tic-tac just to tell me that my hair looked better when it was left open..:)

*for being there when I’ve wanted to talk to someone about life, love and being..

*for being stupidly confused and shy whenever I’ve found you stare at me..

*for making me feel lucky that I have one chivalour’s man in my life..

*for all the flirty talks and those blushes..

And most importantly for being MY strength…



    p.s : I lourvve yew ({})..
                                                                                                                                                                             
                           

Happyness ...:) :D

From the past two months...
I have learn't that happiness is one such thing which you must not depend on anyone else..
So...I make myself happy in any small way I can..It feels good..:)

Yesterday,
A person very close to me..edited a picture of mine..
I thought it was a very sweet gesture
Knowing how less patient that person is..the very attempt to sit and edict my picture for 3 long hour's..
Made me very happy ...
And after A long time I found myself feel special..!

Eeee...I am in "happyness"..!!!!!

Dear editor,
You rock..! Thank you so much :)

The edited picture..
 P.S:The caption is so very mee...:P :)

It's Magical...!!!

Today morning I was sitting in my room sipping a cup of coffee and simultaneously cleaning my bag..
While I was doing so,I felt myself remove an envelope ..!

What could be this envelope..??? I started to think.!
Trying to recollect
My mind says " Oh freak! Did you forget to give the most amusing card you picked for dad on Father's day..? "
My heart replies " No..No..!!  The card is given ! This envelope had a paper in it..It's a letter..:)
The Love Letter..!!!!

This love letter had all my sincere and pure feelings..for the one I love !
Two minutes later My mind to me to Last year's December..
I received the most special Love Letter...
It was not very long not the Goody goody , lovey dovey types!!!
It was funny and so very authentic..! 
Wat keep's it special is the innocence..and words just from the heart ..:)

Love Letter's convey the mysterious and the unexpected !
There is some magic..which excites you and makes you happy !
It has the power to evoke emotion's days and months after it was written.!

No one can resist receiving a Love Letter...I cant!!!
You tend to  flip out the seat in amazement.!!
You remove the letter out of the envelope so gently and you open each and every fold of the paper with so much curiosity filled within you..!

And Of-course !!!! The Blush on your face remains throughout and even afterward..(L.O.L I'm Blushing !!! )



The one's writing just pour out the feeling from their heart and pen them down..!
You need not "Fadu" or extraordinary language or draw hearts all over or make it pinky pink to make it look all beautiful.!
Sincere feelings that's all you need!

Love Letter's bring "happyness "..
I am glad..I was and I still am a part of this beautiful experience..
Trust me ! It's Magical..! ;)

Soo..Keep Loving..! Keep Writing !!! *Cheer's *

 

The Silly me..!

Yesterday my mum was watching me dance salsa on a shakira's "hips don't lie" :P
And she told me "Krishnaa there have been many things that have changed in you  but when you were a baby  your  passion and love for dance remains the same..and grows.." :)

Well..after this my mind forced me to think about my days while I was a child ..!

When I was small ( well although people think I still am :P ) . I had a world of my own..where I used to believe certain things which always weren't ethical but I wish some were according to my imagination or believes.!

* For me Shah Rukh khan and Maduri were the BEST MARRIED couple..!

*There is ONE BIG HOLE in earth where spaceships would go to space and enter earth back..!

*Every cat was called "TOM" , every rat "JERRY" and all dogs were named "TOMMY"..!!

* "Let it be " from Beatles and Bryan Adams "Summer's of '69" were the ONLY ENGLISH SONGS! And they were the Best..!

* When a girl and boy KISS the very next day they get a Baby..!

* Pillow's were ONLY  meant for hugging..!

* Actor's knew most of the "baap" steps and had "amazing" voices..hence which make them the BEST DANCER'S and BEST SINGER'S..!!!

* Clouds were the only one's who cried the LOUDEST and LONGEST..!!!

Well..All these thoughts made me "The silly me "..!!!
But childhood days were the best days of my life.!

p.s : The weather its freakishly awesomely romantic!!! .. Although the rain gets at me at times..!!
      Nevertheless, its a season for love..so..keep loving..! :)